I know you’re all getting sick of it (and frankly I am too), but there’re some last things to say (for now) to clear up the story of Jessica.

1. I had not come to any sort of conclusion that she was “the one” for me. She’s great .. really like spending time with her, But not enough time had passed for me to seriously make and plans for the future. Not that I hadn’t thought about it (I mean, come on, seriously. Even if it’s waaay back there in your mind, when you date some one you at least think about the future. “Do I really want to spend more time with this person”), but I was nowhere near making plans.

2. Most of my frustration came not from “losing Jessica” but from experiencing yet another situation in which I find a great girl and end up shut out of the picture because of some curve ball coming out of nowhere. After a while you sort of start to think it’s your lot in life … not a good feeling.

3. Turns out I was slightly wrong about the situation between me and her. Yes, she likes this other guy and he likes her, but he’s still unwilling to do much of anything about it. He’s unwilling to write her into his plan for the coming year and that’s making her start to dislike him. But I know those are complex emotions that could change in a heart beat.

In the end we’re still going to see each other, but now I have a much better understanding of how things are and just how they could change. We’re going to keep it cool and not get ahead of ourselves, and despite my nature of not being able to do that … I think I’m actually ready for this one. Plus, I’m going to be here for another 2 months. I still don’t see my self making too many plans in such a short amount of time … but whatever. I’ll worry about that if it comes.

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