I should have known.

How could I have expected anything different?

Of course he would call and tell her he had made up his mind – that he wanted her with him forever.

He’s the guy she’s wanted for months, but never had … because he’s the guy that’s taken 9 months to sort out what he really wants from her. He’s the guy that was “friends first” before anything else happened and tried to ignore his feelings for so long because he wanted what was best for everyone else. He’s the guy that’s 2000 miles away, but all the closer when she goes away to art school.

Of course he would have to figure it out right as I find a place for myself in the picture.

Of course he would! … of course he would!!

I’m the guy who’s known her for a week. I’m the only guy she’s met in the last 9 months that’s been worth her time … even though she thought she’d never see me again. I’m the guy that’s here “right now”, but 1000 miles away in a month and 500 miles away when she goes to art school.

I thought I’d have a few more weeks before having to figure out what to do with Jessica. I thought I’d have some time before deciding if it was something we could spend some more time on.

But it came much too soon …

… and much too late.

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